hmmmm! realised my blog not much activity as of late

was very down the other day, but thank God for sending xiaoting, elvis, meiyan, pst kong to encourage me.

on fri, counseled for 1hour n then felt rather drained but needed to spend time with housemate, to just show love n be a friend. i think thats what ppl need most, more than just preaching to them.

as xiaoting was sharing with me to hold on to God and his calling for me, was just so tough to believe, sometimes u just focus on numbers, but thats a short term thinking, why did God call me to be a cgl, thats really because there is an anointing that abides, a specific group or individual to reach, impact n see their lives transform. sometimes as humans, we attribute too much of it to ourselves.

its like a kid building a lego house and claiming all the credit but it was actually the dad helping the kid every step of the way. many times we come before God and say wow what a great breakthru and great work we did, but yet God in heaven smiles and says 'yes, well done my son' then slaps 'hi 5' with his angels who know who really did it, and thats God's hand at work in our lives.

i was so discouraged but i jus took out the bible to read verses, and just kept claiming and proclaiming the word, confessing words of truth - i am anointed, whatever the devil meant for evil, God meant for God, in the story of peter betraying Jesus, jesus said to peter, satan has asked for you that he may sift you as wheat. but i have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail, and when you have returned to me, strengthen your brethren (luke 22:31-31), kept speaking out what i believed in my heart.

that word was sown but at that time, my feelings were down, but i believe what i sowed on that day bore fruit, i feel so much more hopeful today. God is good, he will bring in new people, i do not need to fear, because God has broken the fear of death over me, the fear of failure.

today, went to meet shunlong's friend - vincent to help him with his assignment, a business plan for his masters program in SIM. so interesting right, was fun, i realised i get energised helping people and meeting needs. he likes to go jog and stays at tampines too, so can hang out with him more!

i have been implementing my body, soul and spirit - 'enriching life' series in my cg and myself. been going jogging at 11pm 2 times this week, so proud of myself. i really wanna build my physical stamina so i wont feel so tired all the time. on sun, went shopping with thati and gave her dressing tips, wanted to try on shunlong today, but he was too hungry, i told him...

tip no.1 do not wear slippers with jeans, cos looks too casual.

i think i shall do more research so i can improve myself and help the cg go up another level! so fun and exciting!