the "attention seeking" blogger is back in action!! wahhahaa
just wanna chill out n pen my tots.
today gave make up cgm. this week SO MANY!! 5 in total, never gonna do this ever again. NFs u all better come cg yrself, i dont want convenient pple lor. i soooo learnt my lesson. wah, ppl can u go for yr own CGM la, like pst say, yr cg must be the most happening, exciting, nourishing that yr members would rearrange their schedule so they come..
members reasons can always be valid, n of course we dont wanna be unreasonable pple...but AH.. thats not the kinda pple i wanna raise up. i wanna multiply my attitude n conviction abt cgm to my pple. like in how many years in CHC, i go make up cg like less than 10times? Y? cos i purposely rearrange my schedule to fit it, like wanna fellowship w my own CG pple watzz. other tm even got me into trouble due to my "persecuting" proj group. what a terrible group of pple, unefficient, work hard but dunno how to be productive. 8 hr proj meetings are so unproductive. but its all worth it, i learnt my lesson too .. cos it does take 2hands to clap, now i make sure my work has to be excellent.

today stayed till 1030pm in sch after giving make up cgm to do CB Indiv assignment.
glad its over...now i still gotta tackle writing the NKF scandal case study. another LONG hard work report to do, but yet God will multiply my time as he always does.

Im so happy, with the GV STAR movie club for SMU students, we get to have free movie screening.. gonna watch Freedom Writers.. on 16th Mar, it aint out yet only on 29th Mar. Trailer looks nice n inspiring.

I realised i can be quite a lone ranger person, i realised i have this streak of independence, that i cultivated since last term, when i felt self-pity for not having pple ard me, but then that was the molding period where God put me in a place where there is no one else BUT GOD. Glad this term there is more balance, I do love spending time w pple. Glad there are those i can call upon to hang out w. I wannna make more frens amongst the YK leaders n get to know the pple too. God pls bring lasting frenships into my life.

I think in my subzone, pple i feel more accostomed to talking n open to is probably Jeanie, Sheryl n Chan Eng, n Mingli to a certain extent. I need to press in more to Meiyan... HOW HOW HOW? gotta work on it. Still remember last time when in Meiyan CG, will just call her randomly to tell her abt my life n share w her my woes. I think i need to start that again somehow. Still remember that I really grew a lot from that. Learnt so much from her. But since then, after 1 year in diff cg, i think i become more "professional", not so good. Need to change.

I pray my members would never have a "professional" relationship w me.