had breakthru attendance for delirious, thank you Lord! but i really dont want this to just be a one time spike but i thank God that God is able to stretch the capacity of the cg. Praying for a stronger base of pple. PPLE rise up!

somebody said i was happening person.. hmmm, my goal this year is to be more marketplace, like pst shared, have the full scope of human experience. i think the best timing to do this is really during uni, cos got more free time before working full time starts. i think its better this term, last term i just felt i was alone most of the time, God was putting me a period of clinging on to nobody else but HIM, cos im relational social person la, so love to have pple ard or accompanying me. i think all leaders go thru that season just before they rise up..thats wat mingli was telling me.

focus of fast today
- breakthru attendance for next 2 weeks (till AR Bernard weekend), NF & OF will come back
- praying for SMU frens, reaching out to proj group, BSM group, prof
- family situation - peace

was so frust last nit, just lazed on my bed..but glad i snapped out of it, and prayed and read bible so felt better. cos the environment was kinda grating. think cos i put myself in KT's shoes so im like annoyed at each comment. but glad had a good QT after. i need to be less lethargic. got to exercise.

J was calling me but managed to miss call twice. haa. so funny. but my home atmosphere like quite tense so hard to talk to pple.
glad that today, mummy was better. i was washing my guitar bag with her..sort of, she was supervising. but i think was kinda fun, glad mum was in better mood.

Alex been organising BSM outing. do hope i can go, cos its on SAT, how? clash with cgm and AR Bernard svc.